The stress they cause builds up for days. A few nights ago I went to bed worried about all that. Sometime in the night I had a dream that my scan had come back and the doctor came in and told me that the scan showed the cancer was all through my brain. I was so unhappy. Then the doctor said, "Don't worry, we did a study and it looks like you don't use your brain that much anyway so we are going to just take it out and turn you into a robot. Don't worry, we do this kind of thing all the time"Everything happened so fast then and the next thing I knew I was waking up from surgery and I was a robot. The doctor handed a remote control to my wife with big buttons that said "Eat, talk, walk etc" Somehow I was supposed to be happy about the situation. I guess since I didn't have a brain any more it probably didn't matter. I woke up pretty unhappy though. I hope it was just a dream.
I'm sure it's just a dream because doctors haven't learned how to do that yet. I was listening to, Man's Search For Meaning by Viktor Frankl, while I was doing dishes today, and I thought of you and all the suffering you have been through. I would recommend reading or listening to it if you haven't already. It brought tears to my eyes several times as I thought about the fact that all our suffering has meaning. From the outside looking in, it seems like you have suffered so nobly, and I'm sure you have. I know how difficult suffering can be, though, and it always helps to know that there is a reason, and we are not alone.
ReplyDeleteDear Shelly. I didn't know that you followed my blog. You are so nice. Right after your comment I got on Amazon and ordered that book. I'm looking forward to reading it. Thanks for the suggestion
DeleteEric, you are the focus of each and every one of our prayers. It has been a privilege to fast and petition our Heavenly Father for your healing and for your complete restoration to good health every Sunday since before Christmas. We know you and your family are worthy of supernal blessings, we know that many others intuitively know this about you too. Julie and I feel less than helpful at this point, like Colonel Brandon in Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility: "Give us a task, or we shall go mad." If you can think of any useful task we could take up, we stand at the ready. In a few hours, we will again inscribe your name on the Temple prayer roll. We shall not cease to strive with you and for you. Blessings. Mark and Julie M.
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Don't forget to have them include a "dentistry" button on that remote!
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DeleteI have followed it from the beginning. We also pray for you. We love you and your family. JoLynne has blessed my girls' lives with her service, and you have blessed all of us with yours. Thank you.
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