|Who are those "youngsters?"|
When I began this process of chemotherapy I had visions of what what would happen. I knew that I wouldn't feel well at times but even then I imagined I could do things that didn't' require physical strength I was going to teach myself to play the piano, do my genealogy, finally get serious about learning French, and a dozen other things. Needless to say, things haven't worked out exactly like I planned. Today for instance, wasn't a good day. I didn't have a lot I wanted to get done but there was a leaky valve under our toilet that had to have a bucket under it. That, I thought was an easy job. All I need is a part and about 20 minutes. Surely I can do that. Well, I managed enough energy to get to the store and get the part. I turned off the water to the house and took off the valve. That's when my strength left me. I was so tired I could barely stand up. Then I realized that I had bought the wrong part. Arghh! I tried to get up to get to the car but I wasn't doing well. Sweet JoLynne to the rescue. She stepped right in and said "I can get a part, how hard can it be" and off she went. Not long later back she came with the right part and with her help we finally got the toilet fixed. I was exhausted when it was done. To be honest, I laid in bed and cried a bit feeling sorry for myself and my lack of ability. Tears of self pity are not the sweetest tears to shed. I am feeling a little better now, (well enough to write a blog) but still weak. I find that the trait I lack most is patience.
Yesterday I felt better than today and was able to go to a Stake Presidency meeting. In the opening prayer to the meeting the other counselor plead with Heavenly Father for my my health. More than half of the prayer was for me. The closing prayer was much the same. It made a profound impression upon me. I need to remember how many people care about me and are praying for me and I need to patiently wait upon the Lord. He knows best. This too will pass and in the meantime, I think I will quit making "to do" lists.