I have always found it more difficult to get answers to prayers when the matter I am praying about has such profound personal emotions associated with it. It is hard for me sometimes to separate my personal feelings from answers from God. The answer that we received in the temple yesterday was unmistakeable. We are all relieved that I can begin to move on and regain my strength. Already, on last Thursday my immune system and my red blood cells had begun to rebound somewhat according to the doctor. My body seems to be coming back to life again. I feel like I am waking up from a dream. I still don't have the strength that I had prior to chemotherapy but I feel so much better than a week or two ago that the contrast is amazing. I am so grateful to feel good again!
I have learned so much these last three months. Perhaps in another post I will talk about that. It's a little close to home still to talk about. One effect of all this has been on my tear glands. They just seem to work a lot more often than they used to. Maybe my heart is softer or maybe I am just getting old and leaky. I look at my wife and my children, I think about the many miracles that have occurred and my heart is full. I am just so grateful to be alive!
|The Provo temple. Where JoLynne and I were married. It continues to be a special place for us|