The chemo doctor on Monday was very nice. He took a ton of time with us. Reading and talking about different options. Two drugs are for sure. One is Cisplatin and the second is Adriamycin. The plan right now is to have me get a port surgically placed in my chest on Monday and then Tuesday I will be given Cisplatin and Adriamycin. Cisplatin is pretty caustic and has to be given slowly so that day will last 5-6 hours. On Wednesday it will be just Adriamycin for 1-2 hours and Thursday the same. Then I all have 18 days off and then repeat. They plan on 6 courses of chemotherapy. If there are no holdups then I will be done in 18 weeks. There are often holdups. Already today I seem to be developing a sore throat. It is hard to be around so many people and not catch anything. We will see what that does to next weeks plans. There is a third drug that the doctors at Mayo would like to have me try called Methotrexate. The doctor here really discouraged it. He said that I am out of the age range (usually they don't give it over 35 years of age) and he said it has some scary possible side effects like kidney and heart failure. Plus, he said that if I take it I will be on chemo every week for 6 months and I will feel like garbage the whole time and basically live at the chemo facility. We talked to the Mayo doctors again and they tell us that they still think it would be okay to use the Methotrexate, however, it's also okay with them if we delete it. The participants that talked about my case at the national sarcoma conference were split 50/50 on whether or not to use Methotrexate. We are going to go to the temple tomorrow and try to get an answer. God knows what we should do. He has been pretty good about answering us so far.
I have been back to work the last two days. It has been very nice. I have only been working mornings and then I come home and have a long nap. Who was that guy who used to run 26 miles? Now I feel proud to walk around the block without stopping. Last night I was huffing and puffing when JoLynne came in the bedroom. She asked what I had been doing. I was embarrassed that all I had done was change my clothes. Oh well, it seemed like a workout.
This morning I had a strange dream. I was in a big room filled with people who were sick with various ailments. The Savior entered the room and was healing some of the people. He was coming my way. Finally, He stood before me and I was so excited to be healed and done with all of this. I felt like I had the faith. He looked down at me and said, "I can't heal you yet." I asked him why and he looked at me and said, "You have so much to learn from this, it would be so unkind for me to take it away from you." Okay, here is where I reveal my true character, I woke up kind of mad, thinking, "haven't I learned enough yet?" Later I wasn't so mad. It was just a dream but I need to be more humble.
Okay, I know that I already posted a picture of my new jaw but I took another picture at my office when I got home. Pretty much I just want to show off the fact that I have a better panorex machine than they have at Mayo Clinic. There you go, that darn pride again. Anyway, here is the new panorex. Notice all of the staples in my neck below the bike chain. The staples were used to shut off "bleeders" during surgery. I hope that those arteries didn't supply blood to anything important. Probably just to my brain or something.
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